What’s Left?

My gil is nearly gone, and I have little hope for finding a new source of income. My experiences in endgame have been all bad. I ask for help killing the NM’s inside La Vaule[S] and get only silence. Any other answer would be preferable even if it is “no”. “Where’s your Brutal Earring? Where’s your Byakko’s Haidate?” I keep being asked. All I can think to say is “Help me get them or shut the fuck up about it.” My friendlist is down to one person. My linkshell is gone. Still rank 6 and my progress into the CoP/ToAU/WoTG storylines have all stopped. I have over 200 beastman’s seals and nothing to do with them. There aren’t many bcnms I have the gear to solo other than Treasures and Tribulations, and the Sorcerer’s Ring is too rare a drop to spend the seals on. I can’t solo mobs for the ZNM system, so it is useless. So much of the game is that way: Unsoloable, and therefore beyond my grasp. Merit parties are just like every other xp party: Everyone whines for a bard, and then complains if the party can’t get 25k per hour. Campaign Battle remains, though its appeal is dwindling. What am I still doing here? I wonder how many times I can log out before I stop logging in.